A new day

So now I have found myself in a new world and position in life......seems I have stummbled across my sould mate by chance and well...even though we are sould mates it seems we may never actually be married or together for life. Funny how your past can really screw up your future...who knows though....thru time and patients and tons of bickering and fighting and growth...maybe one day we will find ourselves living...(can't say happily ever after because we both get bored so easy and we constantly have friction right now when things seem to be going well...his way of pushing me out of his life...don't ask) Sooooo now here I am....wondering and waiting....had another try and step back into my life....I have already seen him thru unfavorable eyes so needless to say I instantly kick him to the curb and avoid him......another is trying to meet but he is really too young and I just really don't want anyone but my soul mate...call me crazy but it's less confusing to me to just remain loyal until further notice. He has seemed to found the key to ending my days of catting around and needing that other attention...that need to know if there is something or someone better out there for me.........never thought I would find someone like this one.....wish it could be easier....but then again....where's the fun in that? Not like I can actually do anything right now in my life anyways so....why not just suck it up and hold on as tight as I can on this little roller coaster we seem to be on.